nichole

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 21:20:53 GMT

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 19:25:08 GMT

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 21:22:09 GMT

i feel so lost right now. not having a camera sucks ass and i will probably go insane without one. my to do list is so big right now i feel like my head may explode. ive been trying to make myself feel better by spending some alone time on the computer looking at things i know will cheer me up. my best friends wedding shower is tomorrow and im really looking forward to being with her. i got really sick the other day and im hoping that today will be the worst of it. ive been spending a lot of time resting and taking medicine. my whole body aches and my throat is beyond sore. chris cant even rub my back for me because it honestly hurts way to much.

i almost had a heart attack when i realized all my vacation pictures were on christophers computer that was stolen but i was smart enough to keep them on my camera card. its been so hard since the robbery. i dont feel like myself. i feel as though i have completely lost touch with my creative side. the zine symposium is fastly approaching and im embarrassed to say that i have no new zine to flaunt, or even a table. its no ones fault that all this happend at once. but things are starting to look okay i suppose. i think im finally ready to start sharing my vacation photos here and i will be putting them over the next few days. hope yall are having a good summer!

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 20:37:08 GMT

we got back home from our vacation on sunday. disneyland was everything i imagined it would be plus some. california adventure was sort of a disappointment other than a few rides that i really enjoyed. ended up not taking many pictures because i was just to busy having fun honestly. i feel a need to probably go back in a few years during off season since we went at a time where school just got out and all the summer events just started. there was an estimated 65,000 people on just the first day we were there. i want to go back to just to see everything again and not spend so much time in lines. i would love to just make another trip to california so i could travel down 101 and explore the beaches. spending time with just my dad was great because he's always so busy working. i met up with brandie (beesting), her sister amanda and little eli and i had such a great night with them at the park. i always love meeting new people and so getting to hang out with brandie was way cool. so glad she and her husband william are moving to portland in the next couple of weeks. there are a few things im going to miss about california but im so glad i dont live there. the weather was perfect and im sure we picked a good time of year to go. all the palm trees and tropical plants were so fun to see. to sum up our trip in just a few sentences is hard because it was a total blast.

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 18:50:13 GMT

a couple weeks ago i found an old envelope that was addressed to my grandmother. it was full of disney vacation information dated january 7th 1965. i scanned everything and have added them to my flickr. i have finished most of my packing. monday i meet mickey mouse! we leave around three am tomorrow and my tummy hurts from all the excitement. hoping i get enough rest before we start driving. christopher is a real sweetheart and is house sitting for the whole week. found out that i got really awesome grades this last term and i feel like i really deserve this vacation. summer is starting out awesome and i hope that it stays this way. im looking forward to a lot of adventures and relaxing with my boy and my dog.

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 22:09:26 GMT

this shirt was my mothers originally.
i know that if she was still alive she would want me to have it.
im going to proudly wear it to disneyland.

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 03:58:10 GMT

i have had this background for a while and absolutely love it. you can find this and others here.

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 19:10:45 GMT

my inspiration has run a little dry lately. im trying to pick myself up again and get some things started again. my problem right now is total lack of motivation and my room being a mess due to finals week. monday and tuesday are big days for me and then i can fully concentrate on vacation. im hoping that when we return i have some engergy in me in time to get things made for the symposium. i have my license now and thats crazy all on its own. ive been driving myself to school and the other week i took christopher and our dog max to the beach. it was fun day of playing with tennis balls and running around in the water. i want more days like that.

Sun, 31 May 2009 22:01:02 GMT

so im in need of some suggestions...

on the 13th of june i will be taking a road trip from portland oregon
to anahaiem california and i would love it if people recommended places to see/visit/do
i will be in the anaheim area for six days

also

my digital camera that is only three years old is finally wearing out and not doing what i want it to
ive already made the mistake once of buying a canon 30d and returning it
im not sure if i want to try another slr or just another powershot
i want decent photos of our vacation and i just dont think what i have is going to cut it
suggestions?

i will probably delete this out of embarrassment so if you respond thank you

Fri, 29 May 2009 22:52:28 GMT

these polaroids were taken by my father when he started his resturant
i wasnt even born yet but it was my favorite place to eat as a kid
my birthday parties were sometimes held there and a dish was even put on the menu because of me
its a burrito plate where all the ingredients made a face
he doesnt own it anymore but i still think about it a lot

Tue, 26 May 2009 03:33:43 GMT

when veiwing other peoples polaroids...
do prefer a border or none at all?

(im thinking of uploading a lot of old polaroids from my childhood to my flickr)

Mon, 25 May 2009 18:55:54 GMT

i must have these stamps! looks like i will be taking a special little trip to the post office very soon.

Sun, 24 May 2009 21:59:56 GMT

im surprised i never talked about seattle after mentioning that i was going. the weather was a real bummer because it was constantly raining and i never had a good chance to take pictures. the photo is of her new kitten that she recently rescued. maddy and i spent all of our time catching up, playing with the kitten, and hanging out like old times. it was so good to get away and see her. matt, her fiance, is a really great guy and he is such a comedian. i really wish she would move back to oregon but it seems like her real home is in seattle. matt spent the whole weekend trying to convince me to move up there because he doesnt like most of her friends but i could never see myself a seattle person.

Wed, 20 May 2009 18:39:08 GMT

i always knew that someday i would learn how to drive but yesterday was absolutely amazing. i took my drivers test around 11am and my instructor had a very strong russian accent. luckily he was understanding when i had to ask questions and in the end i passed my test. called christopher immediately and drove over to his house. i was really nervous at first to be driving completely by myself since im always used to someone in the car with me. it felt awesome not having to be with my dad. christopher and i had a great day and i even made it to class on time. its a really new experience for me and im not sure i will be driving other than to school most days. im just so happy i passed!

Mon, 18 May 2009 01:52:54 GMT

i havent been updating this very much for a while now. i wish i would have since a lot of things have been happening. my grandparents are all moved into an assisted living/retirement home and im so relieved. my dad has been working so hard to get them comfortable ever since things started going wrong with them. grandpa found out he will have to use a walker from now on and grandma still has to exercise to get back to the way she was. school hasnt been as good as i have been hoping. i kind of made too many mistakes on one of my mid-terms but if i do extra credit i will be absolutely fine. also, theres a big possibility now that my dad and i will be taking a road trip down to disneyland!

dreaming

Wed, 13 May 2009 17:40:29 GMT

i have been dreaming of a disneyland vacation. started looking at photos last night on flickr and my brain just started spinning with ideas. i stayed up three hours later than i wanted to just looking at what it would cost to go. it kind of seems to me like a really expensive idea that probably wont happen. but then again, getting it out of my head isnt going to happen any time soon. im not made of money but i keep thinking about how exciting it would be. now all i have to do is convince myself and my dad. we havent gone since i was a little girl and i dont exactly remember much of the place. when we used to go we would stay with friends. i remember eating homemade mac n cheese, meeting mickey mouse, and the submarine ride.

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 00:28:53 GMT

so i have really great news. i wasnt sure if i was going to be so public about it but its something that made me feel really great so i thought i would share. i went down a size in tops and i went down a size in jeans. i was previously a size 18 in jeans and now im down to a 16. i havent even been working on loosing weight or on any sort of diet so this kind of came as a shock. i never want to be back to a size 7 that i was in high school but it feels good going down a size. im getting more and more comfortable with my weight and my body size. i struggle with not having a butt or hips of any kind. its always hard shopping for clothes and in the past week i had so much luck it made me jump for joy. being comfortable in your own skin is hard for a lot of people and im glad that im finally starting to come to terms with mine.

Tue, 28 Apr 2009 19:04:58 GMT

im leaving for seattle this friday to go spend the weekend with my friend madeline. im beyond excited to see my best friend from when i was little. we have know each other since i was about seven years old so its been a good fourteen year friendship. i like to refer to her as my other half. she and i are opposites in a lot of ways but we also have a lot in common. im sick again which really sucks but im sure theres a good chance i will be better by friday morning. im not letting it ruin my plans but i wasnt able to make it to class today. i have more good news but that will have to wait for later because right now my bed is calling my name and my sheets are the coziest place to be.

sunshine!

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 00:18:57 GMT

all of this sunshine just gets me so excited. i understand that the weather is going to go back to cloudy and i dont mind. im not a summer person but spring makes me happy. the creativity is flowing in me again and lots of projects are being made. a new zine is in the works and school is keeping me plenty busy. my new computer makes life a heck of a lot easier and im really happy. now that the weather is brightening up a bit it might just mean more photos. it will be nice to take more film now that the rainy weather is passing.

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 23:17:06 GMT

so heres something i dont talk a whole lot about which is my mom. she passed away when i was two and a half years old and through the years ive been trying to piece together my own understanding of who she was. i miss her and i miss knowing that we probably would have been best friends. in this photo she is in the wheelchair. this was the last big trip we took as a family. she passed away a couple months later.

why im writing is because my aunt jill found someone that was very important to my mother. her name is teresa kennedy and they were the best of friends from everything ive read and heard. she talked a lot about her in the diary she wrote when she was around 16 years old. jill is meeting her tonight and if everything goes well im going to meet her too. this is so exciting for me. ill hear things that nobody probably knew about my mom or it will help confirm stories ive heard. knowing more about my mother is a dream come true. especially if it can come from someone she spent so much of her time with as a young adult. i will update with more when i can. i just cant hold in my excitement over this news!

Tue, 14 Apr 2009 02:03:28 GMT

this is my dog max. some of you might know him, but hes such a handsome pup i want to share him again and again. lately hes been making new friends and has an everlasting love for squeeky tennis balls. his favorite things lately are his ball, going on walks, running around for no reason, kissing the cat, farting and running away, eatting cupcakes, sitting in the sun, and sleeping on the bed.

Tue, 14 Apr 2009 00:55:12 GMT

my computer arrived and i am in love. im excited about how much space it has so that i can start adding more music and scanning all these wonderful family photos ive come across in the past few weeks cleaning my granparents house. in the past few days ive become really sick and christophers mom was nice enough to drive me to urgent care on saturday. they prescribed me antibiotics for the ear infection and some vicodine for the pain. ive been feeling better gradually but i assume it will take another week to get back to normal.

also, now that i have this twenty inch widescreen monitor my image sizes might increase a little. hope nobody minds.

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 20:11:59 GMT

HAPPY EASTER

hiatus

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 19:57:18 GMT

so ive purchased myself a new computer. im extremely excited and ive decided that until it arrives im going to take a little break away from the internet/my crappy computer i have now. im going to spend time making new buttons for my etsy and maybe even write a new zine. i need to get out more and start taking photos. im in a photography class this term and i hope that it will inspire me. so with that, good bye for now. see yall in a few weeks!

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 00:10:30 GMT

has anyone bought a new computer or laptop recently and have some suggestions? im kind of lost.